You are all a miracle we needed

I know I haven't posted ina long long time. Life has me so busy these days, I can barely finish a thought, let alone a post! :o)

This past week has been the single hardest week in my whole entire family's life. Everyone is just trying their best to get through this bleak time.

I contacted Cranky Pants the one day last week and asked her if she could let people know that YGRS wouldn't be on for a while and why. Thank you Cranky Pants for getting in touch with people. And I know my Mom put a short post up (as much as she could bear to write). I knew that you guys all meant so much to her. It's funny how people you may never actually sit and have a cup of coffee with can be such good friends. I wanted to make sure that even though I had 3 kids to take care of and I am an hour away, that she felt loved from the people in her life that meant a lot to her.

I was so surprised then to see the reaction I got. People that loved my Mom, not ever having met her face to face (and some who have) wanting to help out in any way they could. People who felt her pain and hated not being able to do anything about it. You all chipped in whatever money you could and sent it her way...in hopes that she could use it for something. The funny part is, I never told Cranky Pants that they didn't know how they were going to pay for the funeral. They had no idea how they were going to come up with this money they didn't even have. That I believe was a miracle. That you all had no idea about what was financialy going on, and you did this. I believe that God was speaking to you all that day. And God told me to write to you, Cranky Pants, because he was going to make this miracle happen for my Mom.

You guys raised almost $1,000 for my Mom! That was 1/3 of the cost right there! It was a miracle! And between you guys and out family members putting money in, we did it. We raised enough to have the service for Sam. This has been a tragedy. This is so heartbreaking for all of us. We loved him so dearly...I don't think he ever knew how much. It's been years of pain for our family, watching him go through all he has been going through and trying to help him.

I want you all to know too that My Mom is so grateful. She was so touched that you thought of her and wanted to help her. Sh was amazed to see how many people cared about her and loved her. But the one thing she said to me (which is so YGRS) is "I can't figure out why they did this? I mean, I have nothing to give them? I don't know why people always say they like me so much. I don't have money, or great things to share....I just don'tget it" I told her "it's the good in you that people see. That's all you need. You are a good, beautiful person with a great heart.....that's why people love you."

So, thanks again to everyone for our little miracle amongst this tragedy. We needed it!

Lotus Girl